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By Joyce
Carol Oates
If illness is a foreign country, mental illness is a yet more foreign
country, one with a special stigma. No one takes pride in visiting this
country with its imprecise, ever shifting borders and murky language;
its frequent mimicry, as in nightmare parody, of "normal" behavior; its
myriad terrifying symptoms that seem, to the healthy, simply "all in
the head." Our common-sense culture can generously accommodate
physically ill individuals, but the mentally ill can be suspected of
exaggerating, even of imagining, their own problems. Their minds, or
brains, must have "caused" their ailments, since we have only the
testimony of the afflicted to bear witness to what is "ill" in their
lives.
Depression, more poetically known as "melancholia" until the 17th
century, has surely always been with our species, like the so-called
common cold and that elusive malady, the flu. Its history has been as
much theological and psychological as medical; though contemporary
thinking has almost totally medicalized depression, and its treatment
today is far more likely to be pharmacological than any religious or
psychoanalytic ritual involving "talk," there is still a nature/nurture
debate about its origins: is depression genetically inherited, or is it
provoked by one's environment, childhood, gender, politics, misfortune?
As Andrew Solomon suggests in this exhaustively researched, provocative
and often deeply moving survey of depression, depression is "usually
the consequence of a genetic vulnerability activated by external
stress." For Solomon, for whom depression has been far more than an
academic subject, the most useful vocabulary is often metaphorical:
depression is a tree choked and smothered by a parasitic vine, yielding
only "a few desperate little budding sticks of oak"; depression is
"like feeling your clothing slowly turning into wood on your body";
it's "like trying to watch TV through terrible static"; "like going
blind"; "like going deaf." In Emily Dickinson's yet more eloquent
words, depression is "a funeral in the brain." Yet paradoxically, and
here is where the foreignness of mental illness is most pointed, those
afflicted with depression are often ambivalent about it, as no one is
ambivalent about physical illness: "It was also in depression that I
learned my own acreage, the full extent of my soul," Solomon declares.
And, even more rhapsodically, in the concluding pages of the book's
final chapter, "Hope":
"Curiously enough, I love my depression. I do not love experiencing my
depression, but I love the depression itself. I love who I am in the
wake of it. . . . I have discovered what I would have to call a soul, a
part of myself I could never have imagined until one day, seven years
ago, when hell came to pay me a surprise visit. It's a precious
discovery."
"The Noonday Demon" is an inspired title for a survey of depression,
deriving from biblical texts that include the King James version of
Psalms 91:6 ("the destruction that wasteth at noonday") and the Roman
Catholic Douay version, which refers to "the noonday devil." Though one
might wince at the theological metaphor, with its suggestion of demonic
possession -- a primitive stage in our comprehension of mental illness
we like to believe we've advanced beyond -- still the poetic figure of
speech is a powerful one that no amount of scientific terminology and
matter-of-fact discussions of serotonin deficiency, neurotransmitter
systems or tricyclics can match. Though we "know" better, we tend to
"feel" symbolically. Depressive personalities, and their close kin
suffering from bipolar disorder (formerly known as manic-depression),
are prone to romanticizing their neurochemical-based illnesses, for
these illnesses intensify isolation, inwardness, self-analysis and
self-dramatization. "In the throes of depression," Solomon says, "one
reaches a strange point at which it is impossible to see the line
between one's own theatricality and its reality of madness."
"The Noonday Demon" originated in 1998 as an article on depression in
The New Yorker that stimulated an extraordinary response among readers.
It's both an intensely personal document, a memoir of the author's
several breakdowns in the wake of his mother's harrowing experience
with ovarian cancer, and a more conventional, ambitiously encyclopedic
study of depression and suicide. In its mixture of the personal and the
impersonal, the confessional and the analytical, "The Noonday Demon"
will remind readers of Kay Redfield Jamison's "Unquiet Mind" (1996) and
"Night Falls Fast" (1999), the latter of which Solomon quotes
throughout his text. In its informed discussion of psychotropic drugs,
including the ever-popular Prozac, it will remind readers of Peter D.
Kramer's "Listening to Prozac" (1993). Though oddly missing from
Solomon's 34-page bibliography, William Styron's spare, elegiac memoir
of breakdown and depression, "Darkness Visible" (1990), would seem to
have been a model as well.
Yet there is much in "The Noonday Demon" that is original and vividly
recounted. Solomon's account of his mother's courage and integrity in
the face of her deteriorating physical condition and her decision to
commit suicide by way of an overdose of Seconal, taken in the presence
of her family, is particularly moving, and might have been developed
into a book-length memoir. This sensitive material is rather swamped by
the many reportorial pages that surround it.
Readers should not be discouraged by the opening chapter of "The
Noonday Demon," titled "Depression," which is the least coherent
chapter in the book, lurching from point to point as if awaiting a
principle of inspired organization that never arrives. The second
chapter, "Breakdowns," is the true dramatic beginning: "It was when
life was finally in order and all the excuses for despair had been used
up that depression came slinking in on its little cat feet." From this
point onward, Solomon is more certain of his somewhat unwieldy
material. Even when writing more or less straightforward journalism,
Solomon writes engagingly; his style is intimate and anecdotal, and
often bemused. Looking back on his depression, he notes his skewed
logic: "I have often wanted to kill myself for a month." He assures us
that his love of sky diving, a "para-suicidal activity" for others,
isn't suicidal in his case (though he discusses it in the chapter
titled "Suicide"). He's frank in his enthusiastic endorsement of
psychotropic drugs: "It is hard for me to write without bias about the
pharmaceutical companies because my father has worked in the
pharmaceutical field for most of my adult life." (There are times when
"The Noonday Demon" reads like a pharmacologist's handbook, thrumming
with the Brave New World music of mellifluous brand names: Celexa,
Xanax, Viagra, Zyprexa, Effexor, Wellbutrin, BuSpar, Depakote,
Klonopin, Halcion, Restoril, Zoloft, Paxil et al.) But Solomon also
speaks optimistically of electroconvulsive (shock) treatments and of
psychoanalytic and "talk" therapy, all of which he has tried.
Perhaps more controversially, Solomon discloses his deliberate and
repeated attempts to infect himself, through unsafe sex, with the AIDS
virus in 1995, in the grip of depression: "It was not my intention to
die slowly of AIDS; it was my intention to kill myself with H.I.V. as
my excuse." Solomon notes his several violent episodes triggered by
depression (or by the potent drug cocktail that was prescribed for him)
when he "began plotting murders in my mind," and assaulted a lover whom
he suspected of betrayal. "I attacked him," he writes, "with a ferocity
unlike any I had experienced before, threw him against a wall, and
socked him repeatedly, breaking both his jaw and his nose. He was later
hospitalized for loss of blood. I will never forget the feeling of his
face crumpling under my blows. . . . It took a powerful summoning of my
superego to save me from strangling him."
Seemingly unaware that such an assault is a felony, Solomon reflects:
"Engaging in violent acts is not a good way to treat depression. It is,
however, effective. To deny the inbred curative power of violence would
be a terrible mistake. I came home that night covered with blood --
mine and his -- and with a feeling of both horror and exhilaration. I
felt tremendous release." Unfortunately, violent acts are not so
"curative" or cathartic for their victims.
In addition to Solomon's memoirist material, the most rewarding
chapters in "The Noonday Demon" are "Populations" (a persuasive
synthesizing of sociological theories on depression, focusing on gender
and feminist issues), "Politics" (an investigative report into mental
health hospitals) and "History" (a succinct history of depression from
ancient Greece to the contemporary United States, theories and
treatments). Solomon's thumbnail critique of Michel Foucault's "Madness
and Civilization" is witty and persuasive: "Foucault makes good
reading, but the influence he has had is much crazier than the people
who are his subject. Depressed people cannot lead a revolution because
depressed people can barely manage to get out of bed and put on their
shoes and socks."
Amid so much information, the author might have been more
discriminating and skeptical. Some of the statistics he quotes seem
plausible to the layman: approximately 19 million Americans suffer from
"chronic depression." Others seem unprovable: "Depression claims more
years than war, cancer and AIDS put together. Other illnesses, from
alcoholism to heart disease, mask depression when it causes them; if
one takes that into consideration, depression may be the biggest killer
on earth." Nearly 400 pages later, Solomon wonders, "If depression is
an illness that affects as much as 25 percent of the people in the
world, can it in fact be an illness?" And what is one to make of the
bizarre claim that "in the long run," depression "makes good people
better" and "bad people worse"? A sleep expert opines that depression
might have been beneficial in the development of Homo sapiens since the
afflicted "probably lived long and had lots of babies." (This will be
news to the suicidal, anorexic and amenorrheic females, and impotent
males.) Solomon has not resisted the animal anecdote: a circus octopus
trained to do tricks for rewards of food fell into a depression when
the circus disbanded, gradually lost his color and stabbed himself to
death with his beak. One for "Ripley's Believe It or Not."
Eventually so all-inclusive is the concept of "depression" in "The
Noonday Demon" -- and our need to be treated for it with expensive
drugs -- that by the book's conclusion I was drawn to reread much of
Charles Mackay's classic "Extraordinary Popular Delusions and the
Madness of Crowds" (1841), a study of epidemics of delusion through our
seriocomic human history, and Elaine Showalter's "Hystories: Hysterical
Epidemics and Modern Culture" (1997), in which Showalter suggests that
hysterical epidemics require at least three ingredients:
physician-enthusiasts and theorists; unhappy, vulnerable and
suggestible patients; and supportive cultural environments promulgated
through the mass media. "A unified field theory of a vague syndrome"
provides an explanation for its various confusing symptoms, Showalter
says, and, not incidentally, one might add, makes for brisk business in
some quarters, notably the pharmaceutical.
Over all, however, "The Noonday Demon" is a considerable
accomplishment. It is likely to provoke discussion and controversy, and
its generous assortment of voices, from the pathological to the
philosophical, makes for rich, variegated reading. Solomon leaves us
with the enigmatic statement that "depression seems to be a peculiar
assortment of conditions for which there are no evident boundaries" --
exactly like life.
Joyce Carol Oates is the author, most recently, of the story collection
"Faithless: Tales of Transgression" and, under the pseudonym Rosamond
Smith, the suspense novel "The Barrens."
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